I was here about 4 years ago, similarly depressed, similarly hopeless. I want to die back then because of my family problems and because of my study. All the pressure to do well just so I could continue with my education because otherwise I couldn’t afford to pay for it.
And after 2 years I thought I did better. Life was getting any easier but at least I was numb. So it’s not like I could even feel anything. I did break down though. I withdrew completely about half a year before my big exam. And that was kind of when things really got to me. […]