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..the same story like always

by bnwB 6/1/2016

written by bnwB

sexual abuse…
…or how you want to call it.

No, I’m not 18 years old..
No, I don’t have anyone to talk..

It’s horrible..
I can’t sleep.
Now it’s 11:07pm.
I’m in my bed and I have to sleep,
but I can’t.
I love to sleep,
to be honest, it’s an escape from everything and I don’t have to think about stupid things..
..but I can’t

So why I’m writing my thoughts here, I know, there is no answer, but… perhaps..
I don’t know what to do..
Sure, I have talk to someone,
but I can’t…

and the other […]

6/1/2016 4 comments

“sorry”

by bnwB 5/11/2016

written by bnwB

I’m done..
Is it rape?
Is is sexal abuse?
– I don’t know

Why?
Why dad?
Why you did this dad?
…yesternight
…tonight

You said you love me.
is that love?
You said I’m your angel.
just because I’m your angel?
You said “sorry”
sorry for what?

for the last five years?
that you ruin my life?
that it hurts so much every time?
that I don’t have a father?

Sorry for what?

5/11/2016 2 comments

a reason to stay?

by bnwB 5/11/2016

written by bnwB

5/11/2016 14 comments

by bnwB 3/31/2016

written by bnwB

Maybe there is somebody who has the same problem or knows, what to do in a situation like this.

I think you don’t know me and my last posts. So I don’t want to talkt too much, I was abused by my dad. It’s for 5 years now, maybe 4 oder 6 I’m not sure. I was too young, to understand, what and why he does something like that. I thought […]

3/31/2016 5 comments

a real reason to die

by bnwB 3/13/2016

written by bnwB

I don’t know..

Are all my problems enough?
Is it enough to die?
Perhaps I’m just a young naive girl, in her depressed years, before she’s a woman. Think she’s the only person and her problems would change the world.

I don’t know.

There a so many people, with so many problems. I don’t know them all. Perhaps their life is much harder, than my life it is and they still alive.
What is a real reason, to kill yourself?

Are my problems enough to die?

I don’t know.

3/13/2016 2 comments

by bnwB 3/12/2016

written by bnwB

It’s weekend, saturday night. It’s 10:54 pm and I’m in my room, in my bed. It’s dark and I have too many thoughts about everything. I think about where I’m in ten years, here? on this planet? alive?
I think back to the situation, when I was at school, my teacher told something about short storys. I thought about situations in my life, when I needed this informations. But i couldn’t find some.
I sit there, every day and waste my time for some stupid things like this. When I will kill myself, why should I go to school anymore? But I’m not sure if […]

3/12/2016 6 comments

monster

by bnwB 3/12/2016

written by bnwB

3/12/2016 3 comments

alone

by bnwB 3/6/2016

written by bnwB

Hello everybody.
First I want so say sorry, for my bad englisch. I hope, that you will understand, want I want to tell you.

I’m so lonely. Every day I’m alone, at home, in my bed, and do nothing.
I have no friends.
In the morning I’m at school and nobody cares about me. They just think on them self. If the classmate’s friend is sick, she comes to me and want to talk with me but only than. If her friend isn’t sick she doesn’t care about what’s with me. Nobody cares about me. I walk alone, I work alone, I do everything alone.
When […]

3/6/2016 8 comments