I feel like I’m this huge drain on every single person around me. People say that they love me. I appear to accept these words, yet in my mind, I sit there and say “yeah right. Who could love someone like me?” I’ve contemplated suicide before, but I always chicken out of it. I always will. I disgust myself. I’ve spent time in a psychiatric facility for suicidal thoughts. All I do is sit around. I devour resources that aren’t available, thereby putting those around me in a deeper state of debt. When there’s a problem with those I care about, all I ever manage […]