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My last post

by brighteyes 9/22/2012

written by brighteyes

I made a few posts on here a while ago. I was in a really bad place.

Since then, I have made significant changes in the way I think and approach every situation. It hasn’t been easy, but I honestly feel like things will be okay. The posts that I read through really break my heart. I hope that you will all find a way to be okay with who you are because we all deserve to be happy.

So this is my last post. I will think of you all everyday whether I’ve spoken to you or not.

With love,
brighteyes. xx

9/22/2012 3 comments

We all know it.

by brighteyes 9/11/2011

written by brighteyes

There is no point.

9/11/2011 1 comment

lonely.

by brighteyes 8/1/2011

written by brighteyes

It’s been so long since I posted, I actually don’t know what to write. I am assuming that’s a good thing. Things aren’t as bad as they could be and I think that’s something I should be thankful for.

It is really lonely though. I have tried to reach out to a couple of friends, not about being depressed or suicidal as such, just for company and I guess everyone else has lives and things to do. I understand that.

I hope that wherever you are.. that you aren’t as lonely as I am.

8/1/2011 6 comments

i thought i would have it figured out by now.

by brighteyes 6/29/2011

written by brighteyes

I haven’t posted in a while. I have been actually seeing my friends. Leaving the house. To be honest just trying to get out of my own brain. I broke up with my boyfriend of two years in February and just heard that he has a girlfriend, a business up and running and is doing well. I do not regret breaking up with him and I do not want him back but it really makes me question it all. Why wasn’t he like that when he was with me? And why don’t I have it all worked out now? I could potentially grow old alone […]

6/29/2011 2 comments

I appreciate it.

by brighteyes 6/21/2011

written by brighteyes

I almost walked in front of a bus yesterday. I don’t know what stopped me really. I think that’s the best option because if it doesn’t work out the way I plan then I can always say it was an accident.

I really appreciate everyone who has read/commented on my posts. It’s just nice to have some reassurance every now and then. Today is a better day. No pressure, no stress. But the loneliness remains. I’m still completely alone regardless of who I’m around.

I hope wherever you are, today is a better day for you too.

6/21/2011 7 comments

What’s the point?

by brighteyes 6/20/2011

written by brighteyes

I actually don’t know what I’m doing. Why am I studying a course I hate, living in a place where I’m suffocated, pretending that everything is okay with my family and friends? Why I am here? What the hell is the point in all this?

I’ve been laughed at my entire life, do I always have to be joke?

6/20/2011 7 comments

New

by brighteyes 6/20/2011

written by brighteyes

To be honest, I really don’t know what to say or where to begin. I stumbled onto this site today and my main reason for joining is because I don’t think my family or friends would really know to begin to understand.
I really feel like the walls are just tumbling in, and I’m trying to run, trying to find a way out but it just seems like there’s no open door. I really wish I could just have one moment of clarity. Like just recently, things weren’t going to well, and I told one of my good friend how I had been feeling lately […]

6/20/2011 11 comments