I’ve been holding it back all day. trying not to cry and get sick. im nervous. me and my ex (the one I mentioned before) are back together, but its not the same we both agreed. its different and it’ll never go back to normal he says. I want to work everything out and fix everything but I cant. I dont know how. he’s unhappy and I cant change that. I worry so much about him its ruined my own happiness. he just wants me to be happy and I want the same for him but at the same time I dont want to give […]
My boyfriend of two years left me today. it’s hurts. so much I can’t breathe I feel like I’ve lost all my humanity and sense of feeling I can literally feel my heart breaking. I want to die. I want to die so bad to just cut and cut till theres nothing left. I want to bleed out this bad I want it gone. my parents seen my cry for the first time in I dont know how long. I can’t take this. please help me someone please help me I dont want to be alone anymore…
I just need a friend. I feel so alone anymore. I cant stand to be awake without hating myself and wanting to go back to sleep just to shut out the rest of the world. I have to beg for someone to notice me or even talk to me and im going crazy. No one will help. I doubt anyone even cares. I just want a friend i want someone to talk to. Someone to listen for once. Maybe i wouldnt feel so alone.
so I’ve been thinking, what I said before is true but, I couldn’t end my life for the sake of my mother. I know she hurts and I couldn’t put her through anymore. I want to tell her everything. I want to talk to her and help her. I made a promise to myself last night that I will always be here for her. no matter how much pain I have to go through. I have enough as it is but for my mother I would do anything. she’s the strongest person I’ve seen in my life and my hero. I’ll absolutely do anything for […]
things aren’t too bad. at least I think. im not sure about a lot of things anymore. its hard to believe or trust anyone anymore. a lot of people have left me and it hurts to watch everyone I love leave me and blame everything on me. I say sorry way too much and it annoys people but I cant help it. I always feel like everything is my fault and like I’ve done something wrong. I haven’t cut in I dont know how long but I still think of it every day. suicide is always on my mind and I cant stop it. I […]