Hey it’s been awhile since I’ve posted anything, life has been ok but I still sit around the house on days when no ones home and cry. Still so concentrated on suicide that it takes up about half my day and its still hard to find a reason to get out of bed in the morning, I really don’t know why I’m still living but I have made myself a promise to not kill myself till I’m 25. Seeing that I’m about to be 19 in august it gives me 6 years to be sure that life is as bad as how I see it now I […]
If you saw my last post then you saw that I was gonna commit suicide that night cause I was so depressed and felt no one would care if I died. Well I called my bestfriend to say goodbye and he was freaking out begging me not to but my mind was made up. Originally I had plans to shoot myself but I had changed my mind and wanted to hang myself instead so I went into the garage and was setting up the rope when my friend came running thru my house and into the garage. He was crying so hard and was screaming please no, he ran […]
If I killed myself right here right now I know no one would care it would make everyone happy in fact. My friends tell me they care but they never talk to me anymore. Right now seems like a good time to go everyones asleep so I think I’ll get the gun and end all this pain I havent wrote a note just yet so I’ll have to do that, not to mention calling my best friend promised if i would ever kill myself I’d tell him instead of him finding out secondhand. I just hope that people give life a better chance then I […]
why even try to be happy you just end up being sad again anyways. I’m so tired of telling everyone I’m fine and when I decide to tell them I’m not being told that I’m just a selfish *****. whats the point to all of this? I’m just gonna die anyway why drag out the pain.
This is my second post now that I’ve started talking about suicide, I know its only been like a day since I started posting but I wish that I could feel like this was helping me, the urge to cut is so overwhelming but I’m trying to be strong. The reason I’m posting now is cause I’m trying to find a way to tell my off and on boyfriend that I’ve been trying to kill myself. I’m scarred that either he will freak and tell my parents or leave me permanently without even trying to understand, and maybe I want that, to have something physical […]
this is my first time ever talking about my suicidal feelings. i guess I should let you know about me. I’m 18 and I’ve been trying to kill myself since I was ten not sure what made me want to start but i’ve been trying ever since. Sometimes I’ll be “fine” for weeks and then i drop back to wanting to die or cut which can last for a few days or sometimes months. In total I’ve tried 12 times one was about 3 hours ago and shortly after started puking, my mom walked in the bathroom and asked if I was ok and i told […]