i don’t get it. why am i not good enough? why does he not tell me he’s cheating. he is. i know he is. he knows i know, so just admit it. why can’t i break up with him? he was supposed to be my sanctuary. now he’s my pain. i can’t go or be anywhere with him because i know what he’s doing. this sucks. can’t i get some peace? happiness? should i leave? it’d probably better – for both of us. he could be with the person he wants to be with. he won’t have to worry about hurting me. he can be […]
I know it’s not about making other people happy. I know you have to try to make yourself happy, but maybe that’s the only way you are. I guess I don’t really know. I’m happy when my friends are happy, I’m sad when they are sad. I’ve never really had a connection to the people I’ve loved. And when I do, it’s hard for me to let them go.
The best thing I can do for them, is to let them go. I’m gone. bye_bye…
i come and go.
here and there.
i make mistakes.
i go home, and there it is.
the guilt, the pain, the shame.
i can’t please her.
make her happy.
everything i do, i just mess up.
and now we’re broken.
non existent.
we tried – i tried.
it just doesn’t work.
i can’t be who you want.
call me all the names you want.
tell me i’m crazy and stupid.
that i need to get myself together.
but it won’t change anything.
i don’t care if you say.
go head, kill yourself.
“i’m so depressed”.
you’re unworthy.
i don’t think you really love me.
cause it’s ok.
i’l be gone soon enough.
the responsibilities will be over.
no more fights.
no more tears.
no more lies.
no more us. […]