Not a damned day goes by I haven’t held the cold steel of my 1911 against my head smiling knowing if I pull the trigger ill finally be in hell but I think of the few people that do love me and I halt myself but I don’t think ill last much longer not once has a girl said yes not once have i felt love outside of family but if I can last this long my weak pathetic unlovable soul can carry on spit on pissed on beaten raped as a child by a monster that forced me to dress like a little girl […]
