He hates me, totally. He told me I was holding him down, that I am a drama queen, I even remember he wished I was dead. I loved him, I tell him that everyday but he never reassured me that he feels the same way. I want to die and I am still crying right now ( maybe I am a drama queen). I want to die, I am afraid to die in a painful way. maybe I am not ready, but who knows? One more day…
There’s this hate in me that I do not understand, I usually hate myself and all the people around me. I am a nice person but people see otherwise. I am 26 and have reached nothing, when I was younger I thought I’d be someone great, important and happy. I moved out of my parents house 5 years ago and since then lived with my boyfriend. I am gay, and my parents doesn’t know (if they did they’ll tell me that I will burn in hell for the whole eternity). Life seems so dark and empty, my boyfriend is no longer attracted to me and […]