There’s this hate in me that I do not understand, I usually hate myself and all the people around me. I am a nice person but people see otherwise. I am 26 and have reached nothing, when I was younger I thought I’d be someone great, important and happy. I moved out of my parents house 5 years ago and since then lived with my boyfriend. I am gay, and my parents doesn’t know (if they did they’ll tell me that I will burn in hell for the whole eternity). Life seems so dark and empty, my boyfriend is no longer attracted to me and won’t even have sex with me. I can’t keep a job and had 17 jobs for the last 5 years of my life. Now I am working from home and thinking of just totally stopping, I cry daily and I feel bad all the time, my life revolves around my boyfriend and I feel that I am holding him down. I cry a lot and many times have wished that I never wake up again ever. I can’t stand it anymore and I wish to die now if not today.
share your suicide story
Report Post
Please log in to report posts
1 comment
hi, causeiamalone… I understand that things are rough at the moment. Just remember, at 26 you have so much more time ahead of you to take care of things and move forward. I’m sorry about your relationship… Maybe this is a good opportunity to assess things? It’s difficult being in a relationship when your personal life is going well… It’s even harder when there are work and other issues pushing on you. You mentioned the multiple jobs over the past few years. Have you thought about the reasons? What can you do to stabilize the job situation? If you can work on strategies for getting things on the right track… perhaps one at a time and slowly but surely…. it might help the relationship situation. Think about what you want to do and how you can get there.