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Reconsidering relationships and concept of friendships

by CC 4/18/2014

written by CC

Before I write my post, I just want to say how relieving this place is. Strangely enough, every time I write a bit, after I feel better for a while. It’s like if writing a bit once in a while was a drug. But it feels goddam good to tell the world.

Sometimes I wonder why we should trust people. I have incredibly big trust issues. I really do not know who to trust. Ever.

Not my family, thats for sure… I can’t stand their judgemental “advice” .

My friends; Â I have many but none I can really truthfully talk to.

My best friend; I don’t know her sometimes. […]

4/18/2014 5 comments

Hole of despair

by CC 4/9/2014

written by CC

Sometimes, I wake up and the sun is shining. Everything is calm. I can listen to the noises of birds chirping and people who are happy. Other times, I am tired. I feel like I am being held back by a bag of bricks hanging on my back. Somedays I just don’t feel like it. I’d rather stay in bed and do nothing at all. Nothing at all. Stay by myself and contemplate life lying on back like there is nothing else more important to do. Somedays I just don’t see the point. I have always seen beyond me. I have always dreamed of what […]

4/9/2014 1 comment

Alone

by CC 3/26/2014

written by CC

I come from a big family and yet I feel alone. I frequent many people and yet I feel alone. I live in a big city surrounded by people, by love, by energy, by lights, by actions, by smiles, by the world… and yet, again, I feel alone. I feel like there isn’t anyone in the world I could really talk to. I feel like I am a weight when I do talk about how I feel, about how I really feel.
I am often ashamed of my feelings. I know it’s silly. But that’s how I am. Self-conscious and really hard on myself.
At […]

3/26/2014 3 comments