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Afraid

by Mathematicianmusician 8/27/2017

written by Mathematicianmusician

I’m quite afraid of going back to school full-time on Monday because I am going to have to live through emotional pain. I’m going to be commuting by train to the city and will be stuck downtown all day without a way to avoid my pain, which has always been through sleeping. I’m going to have my belongings on me and I don’t want to risk them getting stolen. Thus, I can’t take a nap in the library or somewhere else.

I also have a big workload, and have never done such a thing in my life. To not only turn my attention away from my […]

8/27/2017 3 comments

Letter to God

by Mathematicianmusician 2/19/2015

written by Mathematicianmusician

Should I take a nap? I am a little stressed/depressed. Not sure which one came first. I feel angry that the world is the way it is and I am the way I am. People get all of these diseases through genetics and it just isn’t fair that you made us this way. You give us purpose to solve these medical problems, but would it not have been easier on us to just enjoy your world and each other. Thank you for allowing me to cry. I felt somewhat better for a few minutes, but I still feel the same level of stress. It’s still […]

2/19/2015 0 comment

Dealing With Life

by Mathematicianmusician 2/2/2015

written by Mathematicianmusician

Hi,

I have been dealing with depression since 8th grade. Ive been in college since 2008 working to get a bachelor’s. I’ve withdrawn from 9 semesters (8 for depression and 1 for another health-related matter). I am trying to becone an actuary currently. I cannot seem to catch a break.

I have tried many medications, ECT, and therapy. The newest medixation, Brintellix was working fine. However, in my third week of the semester, my depression just came back. I missed class 3/4 days last week. Every day I worked myself out of feeling bad, ending each day on a high. Still, I would wake up in […]

2/2/2015 1 comment