a bottle of scotch and a handgun so I can blow my fucking brains out.
physically, i have parents, family and friends. mentally and emotionally, i have nobody.
with every passing day its like I find another reason to want to kill myself. I’m just so over it. I don’t sleep, I don’t eat, everyone thinks I’m on drugs because I’ve been acting up lately, but they don’t know… they don’t know that I cry myself to sleep every night, they don’t know I spend every second of my free time daydreaming, exploring, plotting. I just lay here in my bed, and think. why does death feel so distant, when I’m so close to the edge. why do I have to […]
im so lonely, and sad.. i just want a friend, someone I can talk to everyday about anything and everything, someone who won’t judge me, someone who will listen and understand. anyone?Â
if you have viber, whatsapp, iMessage or whatever let me know,
love to all!
i just want a friend.Â
someone i can talk to about anything. someone who understands me.
i feel so lonely.
i was right. i really am all alone in this world. ive officially been cut off by the last person i thought i could call my friend. what is wrong with me? am i just that worthless im not even worth the time to talk to anymore? am i not supposed to have any friends? am i not supposed to get what i want in this life? its all too much for me. i just want to curl up, fall asleep and never wake up again.Â
everyday is a struggle. the shit i pull just to get through the day makes me want to cry. i […]
why am i still here?!? where the fucks the self destruct button.the drugs, the drinking and the cutting just isnt enough. sure it eases the pain, but it will never change reality. death is only around the corner but this road never ends. everyday is more painful then the day before. i dont know whats real anymore. i stare into space and just constently daydream, but i will never escape reality. not until im dead. and its all i ever think about. death and suicide. i think of every way possible to kill myself, it just ticks over and over in my head. i dont […]
im so fucking over it! fuck being a teenager. fuck being treated like your worthless. fuck having no one that cares about you. fuck being lonely. fuck my life.
im gonna do it. im finally going to end all this bullshit. i cant sleep, eat or even concentrate. my daydreaming is getting worse, i cant tell reality anymore. my minds so fucking twisted, my body aches, i can no longer see the light at the end of the tunnel. im dead, i just dont know it yet.
i jigged school today. i came home and i was alone. i drank till i could barely stand up, and […]
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where have i gone wrong?Â
my deep decent into depression is worse than i thought possible. i have literally lost my mind. ive driven myself mad. i dont know whats real anymore,i cant concentrate. i daydream consistently, i cant controll it, its like ny mind is trying ti escape reality. its become so severe i struggle to tell if im actually imagining it or its really happening. im so insecure, i have no friends, my family disownes me, treats me like absolute shit. im so very alone, not a single person to talk to, but thats just reality. i dont sleep anymore, i just lay in […]