why do i feel all alone? why do i get used and treated like a tool? why me? i didn’t do anything to hurt anyone … well i tried not to but it always turns out in the end that im always in the wrong .. i don’t get a second chance i just get hate. It so cold and lonely here .. i wish i was free again ..
i’ve began cutting again .. it seems when the blood runs all my depression washes away with it. the open wound is like my soul beginning to glow shinning bright to destroy all the darkness. But the darkness still lingers, in my mind. Forever trapped, like a maze turning into every dead end. Searching. Looking. Finding my light that brings me out of this horrific nightmare. I feel like my mind has put walls up all around my thinking. I can’t think too much anymore as my brain begins to hurt and spin. The walls only fall down at night when i wish to sleep. […]
Every time i’m happy .. life gets harder
Every time life gets harder, its difficult to be happy but the thing is when i do end up being happy life gets even harder then it was before. Gradually everything is falling apart … i have very few people left in my life and they don’t seem to want to listen. I’ve been strong for far too long and i know people will think i’m cowardly for taking my own life. But to be honest i just don’t feel like life wants me here anymore. I’m constantly lost in my mind trapped trying to free myself from […]