I’m on Zoloft. I started when I went to the children’s part of the peninsula hospital. Is there something wrong with me? Is wanting to go back there bad? I was good for maybe a week after I left and now ever since then I’ve just wanted to go back. What else can I do. Life sucks even though any other person would love my life. Everyone talks about how perfect my life is and I’m just ‘acting’ sad and depressed for more attention. Just because my life seems perfect doesn’t mean it is. My life should be perfect. I have everything I need but […]
1. Depression
2. self-harm
3. self hate
I know I cut,
i know I’m crying,
i hear you saying I have to keep trying,
i know what they called me,
you don’t have to save me.
i know your parents hate me,
I know no one would ever date me,
I know you think I’m exaggerating,
but you don’t understand the pain I’m feeling,
I wish I could just be dying,
I’m tired of just surviving .
im going to see my doctor soon that’s specifically for my anti-depressants. I started at 50mg then 75mg and I don’t think I can keep going on in life with out more. Yes I’m depending on medicine to help me but it hurts so much without it. it helps for a while then I just have to up the dosage. What am I suppose to do? I keep getting urges to cut and sometimes I fall in to them. How am I supposed to fight self hate and self harm at the same time??
my regrets are what bother me the most so I figured I’d list them.
**** coming out and talking about these certain regrets in order their listed is suppose to help me, I welcome your thoughts and don’t mind name calling because, well you’ll see.****
1- lying that one specific lie
2-hurting who I hurt
3- being who I am
4-trying to die at the wrong time for people
5- having to take medicine to hide the pain
6- letting people mistake my cry for help as attention seeking
7-saying I regret cutting
8- said I was okay but I wasn’t
9- not thinking clear
10- not getting away when I should have