im going to see my doctor soon that’s specifically for my anti-depressants. I started at 50mg then 75mg and I don’t think I can keep going on in life with out more. Yes I’m depending on medicine to help me but it hurts so much without it. it helps for a while then I just have to up the dosage. What am I suppose to do? I keep getting urges to cut and sometimes I fall in to them. How am I supposed to fight self hate and self harm at the same time??
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I don’t know. I self-harm occasionally as well – very minor self-harm, nothing deep or serious. It takes the edge off my day. Hey, a barely-bleeding scratch is better than insanity!
Amen to that
I can’t give advice to you, only my observation. You seem to be replacing self harm/hatred, with increasing dosages of medication, you know this can’t keep going on, hence your post. I’m assuming you’re also getting therapy, I believe it’s by talking through the reasons for self hatred and self harm, which I imagine are linked, that these thoughts may be lessened. Although, as you mention, medication can help, I believe it’s always better to use as little as possible to cope, with an aim to stop altogether at some point, you will need to one day. I don’t know what you should do, only you know what is right, I only hope you can find a way not to increase dosage but remain able to resist cutting.
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Maybe scheduling regular therapy appointments could help. Medication often works and the therapy could assist. You and your therapist could discuss how you’re feeling and maybe other strategies aside from cutting. It’s great that you’re seeing your doctor.
I do go regularly but it doesn’t help… And yes it is great ,I’m lucky to have one…
I never understood self-harm. Seriously. Stop that. Maybe find something to distract you. Doesn’t it make the pain worse? Get a rubber band, put it on your wrist, and whenever you get the urge to cut, use the rubber band to pop yourself. See if it helps?
Well honestly yeah it makes pain worse only a different kind of pain though… And thanks for the rubber band thing I’ll have to try it
thanks for the rubber band thing I’ll have to try it
Well yeah… it’s hard to understand unless you’ve been in the situation. But there’s no one reason for it.
For some it lets them feel alive. The pain is sort of a validation of existence for them.
Some actually enjoy the pain, it’s enjoyable and/or cathartic.
Some do it because they feel they deserve it, it’s a punishment they carry out on themselves.
And I’m sure there are more I’ve forgotten about/don’t know.
But it’s hard to wrap your head around it unless you have been there. I think the easiest one for someone to relate to is actually the first and/or second, as it can be akin to the rush you get after a hard workout or run. You can get a rush of endorphins through your system that can either “normal” you out, or make you feel good/better, depending on when you do it and what state of mind you went into it on.
Adding to what others contributed i’d say you should talk to your psych about it, because it’s normal for meds to lose part of their effect overtime (your body gets used to them). When that happens they usually switch you to a similar one, and then switch you back so you won’t have to be upping the doses so much. And yeah, try seeing a therapist from time to time, it’ll help to deal with your anger a bit.
Sorry if this is too personal but do you know that because you just do or you have been on the meds too?
Both, and some people in my family as well. It’s normal for most pills to work like that tho, at least painkillers and sleeping aids work that way (which is what i take on a regular basis). I was on antianxiety/antidepressives for a while (not enough to see that effect by myself), but my mom has had her dose adjusted a couple of times because of that, she’s been on that stuff for years (and seems to work for her, didn’t for me).
Oh okay thanks