I’ve ruined my own life and now I want to ruin it for good. I can’t stop thinking about it. I do more harm in this world than good, I’m a disapointment to my parents, a burden to my friends and the to the person i’m in love with. They’re better off without me. I wish I could explain this better but right now I can’t. My thoughts are far too fast and they’re showing know signs of slowing down.