Sometimes when I feel the sadness coming on I try to fight it, I do everything…no anything I can to keep it at bay hoping to god it will leave me alone. But sometimes I let it take control and reach into the bottom of me my very existence and dredge up the fear the insecurities and feelings I banished in a stronger moment and let it wash over me the self-loathing the depression the hatred the thing I wish weren’t there or never existed, because happiness bring denial and strength, the strength to lock those feelings away forever but sadness… sadness bring weakness, vulnerability […]
