Crashyy

I used to have it all. 4 years ago, I was so popular at school, great at soccer, had loads of friends,.. But now I’m depressed, I suffer from social anxiety. I’m always stressed out. I used to self harm. I tried to kill myself twice but both attempts failed. I don’t even know why I’m still alive. There are so many people dying everyday, and here I am.. Still alive. I’m afraid of actually killing myself cause I really don’t know what comes after death. Hell? Who knows.. I hate my job, I hate my school, I hate my life. I still got a […]

My parents will probably read this, this will be the only thing on my computer because I deleted all my history just not this site. I’m gonna leave my home in an hour with my bike (it’ll be dark by then) and I’m going to jump in front of a train. I really hope I don’t fail or someone saves me. I’m just scared of doing this, but I just got to. I really hope it doesn’t hurt. Mum, dad, little brother I’m gonna miss you all 🙁 it’s not your fault, but mine. I’m so sorry! This is my fav song, just so you […]

Please don’t tell me not to do it.  I just want some information about suicide while jumping in front of a train. How do you actually do it, like just jump in front of the train or just stand on the rails and wait for the train to hit you? Is it painless? And what are the chances you succeed? Thanks -Crashhy x