cripple-jo

I keep trying to make a plan, but every time I think about the methods available to me it stops me from getting any further. None of the DIY methods seem reliable or peaceful enough for me to decide on anything. If Euthanasia were legal where I live, I would have done it by now. Perhaps that’s why it isn’t legal, but this isn’t by any means a frivolous decision. There are those of us who are legitimately suffering for medical reasons, but who are not classified as “terminally ill”. Where I live, people that fall into that category have no legal rights to die. […]

I feel like I live in an invisible prison only I can see. To other observers, I must appear normal, and how I wish that were the case. I suffered some mild head trauma a year ago, and then got hit in the head again before I had time to heal. If you can call torture an adventure, this has been quite the adventure. My mind and my cognition were relatively unaffected. If you were to have a conversation with me, you would have no idea to what extent I suffer. In this way, I can empathize with many others who feel tired of life, […]

Among people that believe in an afterlife, do you believe that the way you die matters? Or do you think as long as you live a good life, you will end up in the same place, no matter how you die?

I might be one of the few people on here who is honestly not that depressed. I would have plenty to live for, if so many uncannily bad things hadn’t happened to me over the past year or so. It all started with with a freak accident, then another one two weeks later, then a botched medical procedure that messed up my spine. Fast forward a year later, and you guessed it, another freak accident, right when I was starting to improve. Ever since that last accident, things seem to be getting worse. This isn’t about the fact that I have overwhelming debt, or that […]