Crystal_Ice

I didn’t know what else to label this, but last night I was with my girlfriend and we were going all over to different stores and having fun with her mom and little brother. Her mom stopped by this stupid clearance cart that they have to look for socks and stuff. Then my girlfriend said quickly, “Don’t look in the cart.” I was confused so I looked. There was some spare razor blade for a box cutter or something there.

Then my girlfriend started spazzing out to cover it in socks so I wouldn’t see it and she kept telling me not to think about it. […]

Yeah. I literally just made a beautiful boy with ravens’ wings hang himself. (he got saved though) But… it makes me feel better. It’s almost like it’s happening to me, the way I describe it, and it just releases the want to die or cut or bleed. Sometimes I feel bad for them, though. I know they’re not real, but all the things I put them through.. But yeah, that’s how I let out my suicidal thoughts. And it works brilliantly…

This morning…was a bit rough. My grandma was angry with me because I wouldn’t speak up… When I went up to my room, I took out a broken pen cap or something(I had found it in school… it was sharp…) and I scratched at my wrists. Far harder than I thought I was, actually. It wasn’t red at first, but eventually it got to a very bright red. I didn’t bleed or anything but it stung throughout school. My girlfriend noticed me flinching whenever she grabbed my wrist(which is actually a shockingly large amount) and she pulled up my sleeve. She just told me to […]

There’s this guy I want to talk to…He sits on my bus. It’s the only place I ever see him. I don’t see him talking a lot, and he sits alone all the time, like me. I want so badly to start a conversation with him… I know it will be easier once we figure out what to talk about…

I’ve only ever asked his name and complimented him on a cool shirt he had on. I only know that he likes Alice in wonderland, and that’s about it… I just want to know what to ask him… or what to say… every time I try, […]