i want to die but i don’t want to commit suicide. i just wish i could close my eyes and it will all be over. i also sometimes imagine what it would be like if i were in an accident, attacked, etc. i’ve never had a long streak of happiness. i’m unhappy, depressed, sad, angry, paranoid, and self loathing all the fucking time. if i ever try to tell someone, i’m told that i’m not really depressed and i’m just stressed and it will pass. i’m told not to pretend that i have a problem. i’m not saying i have a fucking “problem”. i’m saying […]
