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Dark Alice

I can’t…

by Dark Alice 4/12/2014

written by Dark Alice

This is going to sound ridiculous, but I don’t think my body was meant to last as long as it had. I tried to kill myself a couple of years ago and failed (obviously). I am currently in my first year of university, and a lot of my joints have been giving me increasingly more problems. It started with just my ankles, but now my wrists, knees and shoulders are paining more and more often. It’s as if my body it breaking because it was not meant to go on as long as it has.

I also see nothing in the future. All my ‘friends’ have […]

4/12/2014 0 comment

Struggle

by Dark Alice 12/13/2013

written by Dark Alice

I am 18 and just finished high school. I used to think that after high school my life would get better. But now all I want is the distraction it offered. Now I’m home alone all day and all I can do is listen to the voices in my head. I’ve tried distracting myself with arts and crafts and my writing – two things that used to bring me joy – but even that doesn’t help.

A few years ago I was in a very dark place; i cut myself, starved myself, choked myself and even overdosed. Thanks to my best friend I pulled through and […]

12/13/2013 4 comments

No one notices

by Dark Alice 7/17/2013

written by Dark Alice

I can’t believe I let my manipulating ex back into my life! All he does is use me. My best friend/sister has been gone for over a month and I have no one else. I was weak and vulnerable, and he took advantage of me.

My family, needless to say, notice nothing. My dad is too busy with work, my step mother is a self ***** and my grandparents and aunt prefer my younger cousins over me. My mother hasn’t tried to contact me sine Christmas 2011.

The pain is eating at my insides, but I have no way to let it out. I used to cut […]

7/17/2013 5 comments

Why bother

by Dark Alice 7/4/2013

written by Dark Alice

It’s been 5 months since the horrible break up with my almost fiance and I felt like I was finally ready to give relationships another try. This guy has been great to me through the past year and we’re like siblings. We decided to take it to the next level.

That was three weeks ago. He was so sweet and amazing before, but now suddenly his family is too busy for him to make time for me and he wont let me visit. He dumped me with the stupid Â “you’re too good for me” line. He knew how much he meant to me. He was the […]

7/4/2013 2 comments

Death

by Dark Alice 5/4/2013

written by Dark Alice

This is a poem I wrote a few months back… I find that poetry is the only thing that calms some of the pain…

Thy sweet embrace,

so tender and soft,

thy lips laced with poison

so as to set me aloft.

Thy gentle touch,

such a loveless caress

thy only aim;

free me from life’s depress.

Thy black eyes,

void of any emotion

thy hath come to get me

to add me to thy soul ocean.

Thy dark cloak,

designed to conceal

but with me here alone,

a hand thou reveal.

Thy raise thou scythe,

my blood runs cold

I swallow my fear

and stand strong and bold.

Thy lower thy blade,

swift and sure

and in and instant,

I am no more

5/4/2013 0 comment

Does anyone even hear?

by Dark Alice 5/3/2013

written by Dark Alice

I am 17 years old and have already attempted suicide once, and have been cutting myself for almost 8 years now. Lately I’ve become a complete wreck. I was recently dumped by a guy I’d been with for a year and 8 months. He was saving up for our engagement ring. My best friend has also recently disappeared from my life. My parents divorced when I was 2 and I haven’t seen my mom in almost 2 years now. I haven’t gotten along with my dad in years and his girlfriend of 8 years is a complete two-faced *****.
Lately, I’m constantly crying. Everything I […]

5/3/2013 4 comments