Dawn

I um ._. was in a mood ._. and um ._. worried about everyone… I love the people here too much and I’m here for you even though I can be over dramatic and annoying and take over…. You all, way more than I could fit, mean so much to me. And everyone here I haven’t talked to yet, I care about you, too. I’m always here to talk to… < 3

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Why do I feel so lonely? Could never imagine before that it’s possible to feel this lonely and I can’t shake this feeling. It’s holding me down and it hurts.

You’re right… I lied…. I was scared. I was scared to talk about what I was feeling because I didn’t want to go back to the hospital. I’m scared of you telling again… I went through the worst I’ve ever felt this past week and I couldn’t tell you because I was scared you would freak out and tell on me again.. But you DID help… I’m not sure how to explain HOW you did but you did. I don’t want to fight again so I’ll leave you alone if you want. Just talk to me when you’re ready. I understand why you’re pissed. But […]

I don’t know WHAT the hell happened to me this week… I completely lost it and I thought this was it. I felt so suffocated and trapped inside myself. I couldn’t think, couldn’t breathe and all I could FEEL was the boulders holding me down. I thought I HAD to end it. I didn’t think I’d be able to breathe again. I’m sorry for dragging people into it when I didn’t actually believe anyone could help… But I’m ok now. I can think and breathe and feel again. Without some of you I might not be here. Not that life is wonderful. It still sucks. […]

Fucks up everything .-.

oversensitive. over-dramatic. annoying. clingy. fat. stupid. ignorant. immature. Me. I’m leaving the site, leaving the internet. getting rid of all my accounts on everything and I’m not coming back. No one needs to know where I’m going or what I’m doing or if I’m alive or not. I love those of you who were there for me and I’m sorry for putting you through the shit that comes with knowing me. 😛 Goodbye my support group. I’ll miss you all so much. <3

Well… That’s it then… I knew he would pick her. He knew it too. I’m just not worth it

This is bullshit… School is useless to what I want to do with my life… If I live long enough to get out of here…

Yeah I didn’t think so. A lot of people who knew me on here aren’t on here anymore… Either facebook or email. And only two still talk to me. Probly because the two that I email I said goodbye for good. But I talk to 2 sp friends still. So I doubt I’m missed. Well I’m still here.

Sigh… Best friend swooped in snd saved me -.- I’m still pissed that I woke up today. -.-

I really hope I don’t bsck out… I’ll be pissed if I wake up in my bed tomorrow…

next few days… probably….