My two best friends

I can’t stand to see what is going on with both of you. I love you both so much but I’m changing and so much else is changing and I don’t know how to talk to either of you anymore. I don’t know how to help anymore or comfort you. I do love you both and I would do anything to take your pain and confusion, but I can’t…. I’m so sorry. I guess I have to give up… I don’t want to make you feel worse and I can’t make you feel better anymore. I’m sorry. I’m going through stuff too. It’s not as much as either of you anymore but I still feel the effects of the things that were really bad and I do still have some stuff going on. Mostly in myself. And I’m lost again. I don’t know how to talk to either of you anymore but I do still love you both and if I lose both of you, I have to be done. I think I’m done now. If I lose you then I know I’m done. I’m so sorry you’re going through so much and I can’t take away your pain.