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I managed a few hours sleep tonight. Woken up by dreaming my life was so different. At 20 years old I thought my life would be so different. I would feel like a normal girl. I dream to be a girl who can talk to others without being conscious about every tiny details. One of these girls who isn’t afraid to do anything. One of t girls who hurt for a few days and get back on their feet.
Me? I’m a gorl. I am 20. I hurt every time I wake up. I hurt every time I see someone. I hurt to smile and […]

I have literally cried for the last 4 days, today my own father told me he couldn’t do it anymore he wants to end his life because of me. He’s my father and my 5 brothers and sisters father. He is my mums wife. I am nothing. I should go and be with my grandad I am 20 years old and I feel useless and pathetic. I want to die.

How do I tell my parents I wanna die. That I am depressed how do I tell them that they are partly to blame? That the recent split from my boyfriend is much to blame, that my life is over from now on. The only support I get is from this forum. The only place I can write what I’m feeling when. I’m gonna go to sleep tonight and probably end up self harming at some point this week. Good night xx

Today has gotten a lot worse. I feel so alone, I feel like everyone around me is happy and I’m broken physically. I’m sat crying alone because no one understands my pain no one understands how it feels to feel this way anymore. I cannot go on living like this I cannot keep going on. I’m like a broken toy no body wants me anymore I’m just sat there alone, things piling ontop of me until one day I’ll be just gone.