This is my first time back on in two months… I’ve suffered some complications and hurt… But I think I will be okay now… All I can do is hope.
I feel numb again. But I believe this to be good this time around. I am not feeling any pain. I am not feeling any sadness. I just am. Nothing complicated about it. I like this state of mind. I can think clearly.
I took care of my mom and sister while she was sick and when we werre moving around alot it was hard to keep our spirits up. And the last few months of my moms life was too hard on me. I moved in with a friend while she was in hospice at my house. She later died in the hospital that i was born in. I didnt move back home until 4months after my moms death.during that time i didnt eat, sleep, or talk. i lived on water. i ran for three hours a day, and cut myself before i went to bed. i […]
When I was seven years old, my mom was diagnosed with stage three terminal brain cancer. shortly after her surgery Hurricane Rita hit. We moved around for about two years. In 2010, my moms cancer came back at stage four and my parents told me she would die. That summer i stopped eating, i ran for three hours a day, and i cut myself. After my mom died, school was hard. I kept cutting myself.
I am new to this site… I am not sure about things in life… And I don’t want to take the easy way out, but if i don’t find reassurance soon, I think I may.
It is nice to know there are still people who care in this world. There are not many, but that is better than none at all. If anyone feels the need to talk, or wants to know what my story is, I am here, I will always be here.