So now stuff was going amazing was working out found the right people and now.. I’m not living at home a few hours away living in a basement parents don’t want me back stuff was pretty shit befor I was arrested in my bedroom about 2 weeks now going to be going in to foster care if I’m not accepted in to some program and I would be there for a year then idk were I think back home but my bestfriend it feels like he s replacing me. I’ve been failing school and this was suppose to be the turn around year and none […]
no no this cant be happening ive been feeling better for a month no thoughts of sucide no thoughts of depprsion ive been going to the gym and been feeling so much better but now all of a sudden its rushing back why is this happening i hate feeling like that what do i do i have that feeling of sorrow deep inside me it hits like bullet in my chest
so here we go again i really just want some one to talk to this girl she was my besst friend i told her every thing she could make me feel better no matter what and i dated her sister huge mistake nothing against her just i ruined what i had with the girl that i was best friends and we fixed what happen and now were friends i guess but not like befor we dont even talk and she just ignors me alot like some times we would talk and other times she would blow me off it seems like we havent talked […]
I trusted some one again and they left me i gotten back a friend but i dont think she wants to talk to me really any more i have my friend i made this year hes a good friend i think i bug him some times i dont think i will ever find some one that whants to be my girlfriend more one day as much as i want some thing with them i put in so much effort with every one to put a smile when there sad or mad but whos there for me when i need it no one i just want […]
well i have this friend shes is like a fucken ***** some times and makes me feel like complet shit and then some times she like a life saver and i felt so bad when some  one told me some one died in her family and i felt like the biggest worthless peace of shit becuse i was telling her about things and then she said i was anoying and i tryed to leave her and just think alone and be sad with out her i cant tell weather people are my friends or just feel bad any more killing my self honestly seems like […]