DreamingOfDeath

I might cut myself in an attempt again.

I can no longer control these thoughts.

It’s eating me away.

And I’m so lonely.

Nobody to talk to or hang out with, no one to hold.

I would be missed by a couple, but in an odd way.

So I guess I shouldn’t feel too bad. My family could care less.

They approved of the thought years ago, before and after my first attempt. Who else is there, if not even my own flesh and blood cares.

My sister. Is a piece of shit. She has tried to ruin my relationship with the one person who has ever loved me for too long.

I despise […]

It’s different this time though.

She added onto the question, not just.

What are you thinking?

This time, she asks.

What are you thinking, and please do not say , nothing, or not much.

She wants to know why I’ve ignored her for the day.

Why I am in this awkward state.

I wish I can tell her.

I’d be better off telling her to find me on the project again.

My stomach hurts again.

I will just go away.

Good night.

Do others think the same?

So I get curious, and venture into the darkest place I know.

(I found what I was looking for, my own thoughts, written by another).

Good Night Ladies And Gentlemen.

I’m so terrified.

I am actually showing my suicidal tendencies in public.

I’m actually making it aware.

I can get locked up.

I just want to escape.

I want a new life.

I want to be someone else.

I want to be free.

I want everything to change.

Please. Please , someone help me.

I might roll into a ball and find my way to a corner in my darkened room, and I might just fade away.

What makes me human. Is what I lack.

I’m so broken. I have no future. Every time things go good, they are bad jokes in disguise.

I can feel myself slipping away.

Slipping away into insanity. I’m falling apart.

I am dying. My […]

If there Was nothing to gain, or lose.

then, we would have no emotion.

nothing to care for.

but alas, i suppose that is what makes a human, human.

The day i heard of his suicide , i planned my own.
i turned away from the thought for now, cant cause any more heart ache.

This site… It is my biggest secret…. The fact that I’m on here, means only one thing…. Nobody can know…. I love you

I wonder if I’m losing faith, or maybe there is an absence of good on my life

They never have . I’m stupid to think they every did.

Plain and simple, to the point.