I’m so terrified.
I am actually showing my suicidal tendencies in public.
I’m actually making it aware.
I can get locked up.
I just want to escape.
I want a new life.
I want to be someone else.
I want to be free.
I want everything to change.
Please. Please , someone help me.
I might roll into a ball and find my way to a corner in my darkened room, and I might just fade away.
What makes me human. Is what I lack.
I’m so broken. I have no future. Every time things go good, they are bad jokes in disguise.
I can feel myself slipping away.
Slipping away into insanity. I’m falling apart.
I am dying. My body is so sore. My mind is in such pain. My stomach is constantly twisted.
I. Contemplate so many things.
I need so much help to achieve my future.
But.
I have no one. I . Have . No one.
No one to give me the items I need, no one can save me.
I’ll die alone.
I’ve lived alone , in the darkness.
I’ll die alone. In the darkness.
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Gay
We are just ghosts Darien.
Thank you.
To many words and if you were as desperate as you make out in this then you would be dead by now. Over dramatic I think.
You’ve no clue, your words mean less than dirt.
I’m not the one that is posting about suicide, asking people their thoughts on the subject.
Why are you here?
Just being, a little “Over Dramatic” are we?
You’re the one talking of suicide, yet you have not done it.
Why is this?
Are you just a drama queen?
Do Yourself A Favor.
“To many words and if you were as desperate as you make out in this then you would be dead by now. Over dramatic I think.”
1. Too*
2. are you suggesting that more words means less truth? What if there were zero words? Would that be absolute truth, or absolute absence of truth, since nothing is being communicated? Only a pathetically inferior mind automatically dismisses everything larger than a tweet.
3. Just because someone isn’t dead, you shouldn’t assume they’re not desperate. Plenty of people “soldier on” despite unbearable anguish. Plenty of people are utterly miserable, but postpone their decision to exit, for various reasons; the most important of which, is that you have to be alive to make any decisions, or experience any improvements. So, it’s best to stay alive until you’re completely certain, and completely ready. If you “hang in there” long enough, you might encounter an opportunity to make things better enough to stop wanting to die.
4. i sort of agree about “over dramatic,” but… that doesn’t always have to reflect negatively on someone, or be seen as worthy of spiteful dismissal.
People are allowed to be “over dramatic” when they feel strongly about something. Some people are just that way, and that’s how they naturally express themselves. Not everyone likes those traits, but that’s just how some people are. Kinda like how homosexuality is unappealing to me, and actually grosses me out a bit, but i understand that’s just how some people are. It certainly doesn’t make them any less human, and they certainly don’t require my approval to live their lives in ways i wouldn’t choose, or would find displeasing.
Oh geez. I was about to go to sleep, but seen I had another comment.
In anticipation to get upset again about this person continuing his careless word, I just had to read. To my surprise it was you again! You even corrected him, I was going to do that on my reply to him, but just ignored it and told him what I feel he needed to hear.
When you replied on that other post, I wondered if you are a somewhat Grammar addict, which is cool because I do that a lot, on sites like Facebook. This guy just pissed me off is all, it always feels good to use complete logic on such a thoughtless comment. I’m just saying things that don’t go with anything, I don’t know why. Just had a bad day, then this guy makes it worse, with his judgments and carelessness, than you corrected him into oblivion. Your so smart. I sound weird , I’m sure. But I’m surrounded by such stupid people all day, it’s so tiring, I admire this. What you said on three though, mainly, is what I like, because it’s just so dumb what he said. I never said I gave up, I hinted that I was getting to the point, but of course like always, I’m hanging on in hopes of a better turnout, and he just threw my feeling into the trash with what he said, it’s so offensive, especially on a site like this. Thank again though. Logic is the best.
It’s just the fact that if you don’t know then you shouldn’t say things like that, or maybe not say anything at all, which is what I’ve been taught growing up.
I usually refrain from grammar/spelling corrections, unless i’m also irritated by the content of someone’s comment. I’m certainly a bit of a stickler for language rules (some more than others), but i can’t go around demanding everyone be perfect. I feel physical pain when i see certain common mistakes, like “to/too” or “your/you’re” or “there/their/they’re.” I make typos too sometimes.
Idk. I stopped in to check the site, and saw a couple of comments that just really bothered me, and felt compelled to counter them. I do that sometimes. Other times, i just sigh, facepalm, close the page, and do something else.
What else is funny is I didn’t care when I posted the comment, I already knew what to expect in response. I wish there was a delete comment because I would delete them so yous wouldn’t be so bothered about it. I actually noticed the spelling mistake too, but didn’t feel like exchanging energy in movement of the mouse before submitting it.
Well that’s the thing, now that i’ve commented, i no longer feel bothered by it. Balance has been restored to The Force, so to speak.
But now you’ve gone and done it again.
If you act carelessly, despite the consequential reactions you predict you will provoke… Doesn’t that sort of mean you were just aiming to bother people? Where i come from, we call that “being a *****.” On the internet, it would be called “trolling.”
But i think we can stop there, as i predict neither of us wishes to spend further energy on this matter.
Geez. Discussions between suicidal people are fucking boring and lead to nowhere. Actually just like anybody else’s.