So i am back guys
it has bee a year since i had last been on
here saying i was quiting cutting & pills…
that wish is long fucking gone. My cuts are worse than ever
i almost died & had to go to the hospital for a week cause of pills.
I have to say job well done to life ; you really made me live in
fucking Hell…..
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It wont be easy 2 fully finish this
Or 2 get rid of all my thoughts of my addictions.
I want 2 be done and be free.
I want 2 be happy and i will be.
i am strong and beautiful and will get threw this
now with his help and kisses and comfort
i am 1 step closer 2 being done.
Its a new year and i will start of clean……
           Am i finally happy?
Finally putting the razor and knife down?
Finally putting the bottle of pills down?
Confused much….. i think yes,,,,,, hear me and help me plz dont yell at me.
        Why cant they just accept me.
Accept the new me. Accept the real me and my new ways of my life.
Accept my wishes of blood and a silver blade.
i am who i am, Stop trying to change me…….
Plz just accept me already.
           Gonna take the pills. Hopefully, dont take to many at the most maybe 5. i need to escape……… need to get away…. maybe get the razor after that…….  Here. Goes. Nothing……..
      They dont know how i feel n how lost i am. They dont know the feeling i get after that red liquid flows down my arm . They dont know the feeling after i chug the pills. I am lost n will never be found only lost in this puddle of sorrows, trapped in this pitch black box…… when will they understand…..
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