dying2die

Visiting a place 400 miles away. Travel was a distraction, unfamiliar surroundings were a distraction, a few brief interactions with strangers were distractions, but as soon as things get quiet I’m back to hell. It follows you.

I can’t get a news story out of my head from years ago. It was about a girl who was depressed and went to a party. Everyone says she seemed to be having the time of her life, really happy and outgoing. She left the party early and killed herself. People were baffled.

I wasn’t. It makes total sense and it’s the feeling I’ve got right now. We’re constantly told […]

Asked ChatGPT how Van Gogh died. Got flagged for violating usage policy??

So much for suicide awareness in the 21st century.

Sometimes for comfort (or torture?) I visit the site facesofsuicide where people post pictures & tributes to those who have killed themselves. It’s basically a wall of hundreds of faces, really sad and sobering. You can click on the faces and it leads to their name and maybe a short description, but that’s all.

To me it’s so incredibly tragic that these people were in so much pain that they offed themselves, and history will never know their story. Just faces in a crowd. But maybe they would want it that way? idk

Some days I want the world to know everything (after I’m dead) so they […]

I sure would. This sounds like a badass idea to me. Soeul opened 4 convenience stores where ppl are encouraged to chill, watch movies, low-level socialize or just sit there and exist with others.

https://www.bbc.com/news/articles/cgkrge6e0z4o

I think the key is that they’re giving out free ramen noodles. Who’s gonna turn down free stuff? It’s a great incentive to get people to go, especially people like me who are skeptical of social gatherings. But hey I would go for the free food and maybe hang for a movie.

South Korea has the 2nd highest suicide rate in the world, and researchers think it’s because they went from a traditional […]

If you don’t know who Cheslie Kryst was there are tons of news articles & videos available, or you could read her book like I did. She was Miss USA 2019, a full time lawyer, athlete, model, activist, fashion blogger, TV host for the show Extra, and a ton of other stuff. She jumped from a highrise in NYC in 2022.

The book is in 2 parts, the main part is her memoir beginning on the night she won Miss USA 2019 and contining thru the 1.5 years of her reign living in NYC while flashing back to the years leading up to it. The 2nd […]

I first heard that term when Chelsie Kryst jumped off a highrise in Manhattan. She was Miss America 2019, tv star, model, etc, and who knows what other endeavors, but suicide won out.

Although I’m not a celebrity, I can totally relate because I’m in a high stress career with tons of responsibilities on my shoulders in addition to keeping my own personal responsibilities on track. I think that’s why nobody around me recognizes that I’m so fucking depressed I obsess over suicide every hour of the day. The stereotype of the depressed person is someone who lays in bed all day or whatever, and here’s […]

My fall is accelerating because I’ve stopped fighting it. Looking back I can see how incredible it is that I kept myself afloat all these years by fighting it. But all it took was to give up for just a short while and already I’m past the point of no return.

People have tried to save me in the past. Exes really tried hard, but they proved to me as well as themselves that when there’s a boulder about to fall you better get out of the way. I’m glad I didn’t ruin their lives, at least I can say that. I’m glad I ghosted everyone, […]

Suicide jumper dies shortly after falling from Parking Structure 4

A woman threatened suicide at Parking Structure #4 in Santa Monica on Dec 6. Five fire trucks and a circus of squad cars and lordy knows how many mental health professionals… they talked her down.

Two weeks later she was right back in the same spot. Evidently none of the “help” helped. More fire trucks, more squad cars, send in the clowns again. They talked her down.

Another 2 weeks later, she’s back again and this time she did it fast before the circus arrived.

Don’t tell me the signs weren’t there, that nobody knew, or that she […]