Well, my best friend wrote me a really long and sweet letter to me last night. She told me how much she loves me and cares for me and misses me( I’m in another country visiting family). And she is the top person I love and care for. I couldn’t live with out her. Literally. And she told me should couldn’t live with out me either. I guess our friendship is a bit odd. We want to off ourselves together. And we have been planning that for some time now. I really think its gona work. But we want to use a shotgun, to be […]
Go get it. (i want to)
Any knife could cut your throat. (i hope so)
Just press hard enough. (i will)
I feel like SHIT today. I could berely get out of bed. And today is supposed to be ”family day”. Great! I don’t wana go anywhere or do anything or see anyone. I just want to be aloneee. The cuts that I did a few weeks back are now scars. But I cut pretty bad so the scars are very noticable, even with my newer cuts. But I like them. They remind me. And in some way, make me feel a bit better. But they also make me wana cut more, and make more just like that. I make sure I pick the scabs so […]
I feel like a fail at everything. Like I’m never good enough. I try and try, but it just never works out for me. I just can’t take living anymore. I have no future. So it’s not worth living anymore. I feel so alone. I’ve cried so much I have no more tears left in me to cry.
So there was someone who saw my scars and cuts and asked me if I was trying to kill myself. It’s not the first time someone has asked me that. Someone who cuts doesn’t always want to kill themselves. A lot of people actually just cut for relief and not to die. If they wanted to die by cutting then they would probably be dead already. It annoys me a lot when people ask me if I was trying to kill myself. And then I have to go and explain everything to them which I don’t wanna do, so I don’t really. And the scars […]
I believe that love doesn’t exist for me. I’ve never been loved and never will be. Maybe I just don’t want to. I don’t know. Sometimes I wish I did fall in love, and was happy. But that’s a dream for me. I know no one will love me the way I want to be loved and cared for. I will never find a ”soulmate” because my doesn’t even exist. So I don’t want to exist anymore. It’s not worth it anymore. I’ve lived my miserable and horrible life for way too long. Maybe tonight’s the night I will be on my way to a […]
Well I think I should tell you about myself a bit first. I’m 16 years old and I am an absolute loner. I have like only 2 real friends. I hate my family. I hate high school. I failed 2 courses my freshman year and I probably won’t graduate so I’ll probably just drop out it’s much easier. I think I’m the ugliest person that has ever been and will be on Earth. I just hate myself and my life. I was abused when I was about 6/7 years old. And my mind tried rejecting what happend to me for a long time. And then […]