I wish there was a way to make suicide easy. I want no pain in this. I already have enough pain on my own, why would I want the last seconds of my life in worse pain? Plus, what comes after? What if that place after death was worse than here? I wish I wasn’t such a ***** and just would do it already. I wish I knew what came next. All these wishes of mine lead to death and what comes after. If I just had someone 100% there for me, I think I wouldn’t be in this mess.
So many things have changed in the past year I don’t know what the hell happened. Yes, I have made some friends now that I probably would have had before now. But.. My old friends.. I kinda miss them. I miss being able to talk to them about anything. They were honestly amazing people. Well, until they all turned into back stabbers. But,before they were that though, I could call them in the middle of the night if I needed anything. I don’t have that now. I have “friends.†I even call a few my “best friends,†I don’t have the strength nor the trust […]
I keep lying to myself saying everything is okay, but in reality I know it’s not. I cannot go through the day wondering if I will be better off dead. I keep loosing my friends over stupid stuff. I cannot trust a single soul. I keep breaking out even worse because I am so stressed out on life. I wish life could be over as simple as just pressing a button. But, it’s not. I really have no friends I can speak to about my life and why I am so depressed all the time. All I have is Tumblr. I just need someone […]