yesterday, I experienced the first caring touch I have felt in a long time. Though only brif, it was still real…untill I woke up. =(
I hate this world, I hate it!
I hate my parents with a passion and wish they woud both die and go to hell!
I hate this stupid health kick my mom’s been on.
I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hate…well, not hate, just don’t love anymore, my boyfriend. But I don’t want to break up with him. It’s around the holidays! But I did handmake his present, so that will give him more joy in tearing them apart. I’m sure he will. Somebody please kill me now!
So I guess my life has been all over the place. It’s just kinda at a standstill right now. I’m not good, but I’m not as bad as I was last year… My non-biologically related friend that I consider my mom will be back from a trip tomorrow. That’s a good thing because I really want to talk to her.
Dear (girl who bullied me, keeping names out of it),
I know you told me time after time that you were kidding, and maybe you think I overreacted. But truth be told, what you said hurt me badly. Since we really aren’t friends, I don’t know you, you don’t really know me, and I can’t take that comment as a joke. (She told me that she wanted to hire a brain surgeon to make me right, and a hit man to come kill me.) I don’t know why you made that comment. Perhaps you think I have something more than you do? I don’t know. Like […]
A thought from my world history teacher…
“You know that light that you see right before you die? Is that just a flash or is that like you’re coming out of a vagina into a new world?”
-_-Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â ….Wow….
I’m so sick and tired of living at home. Can’t I go to college yet? I mean, a lot of people look at me and go, You have nothing to complain about. Your parents are happily married, You don’t have any siblings to drive you crazy. Your grades are above average, and you’re a talented girl.
As far as that BS goes, YOU live with my parents for years by yourself. I have a verbally agressive dad that has one of the most closed up minds that I’ve ever seen. I have a mom who is depressed for no fucking reason. As far as the rest […]
Hey everybody, EmM here. I’m feeling in a very inspirational mood tonight. It’s great to be happy for once =) Here’s just a couple things that I hope might brighten your night=)
~WriteOn=)
BeYOUtiful
Don’t underestimate your full potential.
You’re beautiful how you are.
Inside you there’s a brightly shining star.
We are all unique in our own special way.
Who I am is who I’ll stay.
I don’t want to fit in
if it means I have to become pretend.
I don’t care about having a million friends.
‘Cause the few I have will be true to the end.
As for anyone who wants me to be
the perfect person they forsee…
I apologize for my objection,
but that […]
I’m sitting outside the hotel.
I don’t want to go in there.
It’s only a class reunion,
But what if they stare?
Twenty-five years ago,
Did they really even know me?
Will they remember the pain they caused?
Did they even see?
I tried not to let it show.
I had to stay strong,
But with their mean words and actions,
I was almost gone.
It’s a miracle I’m still here.
It’s a miracle I was found.
Hanging by a thread,
Close to six feet underground.
I haven’t seen anyone in forever.
Last they knew I was in rehab.
Doctors wouldn’t let me go back.
A better life, they wanted me to have.
So I couldn’t be around them.
Not anymore.
They didn’t know when I left
That […]
Why did the teasing continue on?
Why didn’t they see until she was gone?
Why didn’t someone say,
“That’s not the right way.â€
Why do they find such pleasure
in hurting people to this measure?
Why didn’t someone say,
That’s not okay?
Don’t you see the hurt? Can’t you see the tears?
Can’t you tell she longs for someone to be near?
Can’t you be her friend,
true to the end?
Can’t you see how you tear her apart
and break her heart?
If only they’d have left her alone.
Instead of breakin’ her bones.
If only someone would’ve had the strength
to tell them NO, push them away.
If only someone would have taken the time to say…
That’s not okay.
Don’t you see […]