Dear (girl who bullied me, keeping names out of it),
I know you told me time after time that you were kidding, and maybe you think I overreacted. But truth be told, what you said hurt me badly. Since we really aren’t friends, I don’t know you, you don’t really know me, and I can’t take that comment as a joke. (She told me that she wanted to hire a brain surgeon to make me right, and a hit man to come kill me.) I don’t know why you made that comment. Perhaps you think I have something more than you do? I don’t know. Like I said, I don’t know you, I don’t live your life. I just don’t get it. I really don’t have much more than a fragile ego. I’m more easily hurt emotionally than physically. I don’t fit in anywhere, and you seem to have so many friends. I try to be nice to everybody because I was taught to treat others how I want to be treated. But there’s few people who even talk to me. I just wanted you to know…To this day, I still have nightmares. I don’t feel worthy of living. I’m not that strong. Some nights, I still cry myself to sleep. I just can’t forget. Honestly, I’m crying even as I’m writing this. You intimidate me. Looking from the outside, you seem to have so much. You are a beautiful young lady with a great sense of fassion. Something I definitely don’t have. You come across as a strong person. You’re a talented dancer. I was watching during the performances at basketball games. Me, I hardly have enough coordination to even try. Maybe I’m stupid and should have forgotten…it’s been a year and a half, but I haven’t. I can’t. So, here you go. If you want, you can rip this up, stomp on it a couple times, and flush it down the toilet. I don’t care…I just wanted you to know.
Sincerely,
Emma
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Well, this is person is pretty stupid because if they’re just going to kill you what’s the point in making you right for a second or two? This idiot can’t even get their own insults right! You shouldn’t take all her talents and let them affect you, it isn’t all that bad. I’m sure you’d have qualities and her ‘talents’ probably just give her more stress and problems. People can be nasty and say hurtful things, but they aren’t everyone else in the world and I’m sure someone’d find you beautiful in a way you could never imagine, after all, you write wonderful creative stuff on here sometimes. I’m sure there’ll be a stage in your life when you’ll never even have to think of her again, I know it’s a problem that you have now, but it can’t be one you’ll have forever.
I dont think you should send this to her.
“wonderful creative”? i just jot down random crap that probably nobody wants to see or even hear about my problems…you’re right, I can’t ever imagine..because I’m not. Everything about me is ugly. and awkward. I hate myself. I wish she would hire that hit man. I don’t even have enough gut to kill myself. I just don’t want to live.
Woah, slow down a minute there. I do NOT think that is random crap, even if it was to anyone else, it isn’t to me. People do care about your problems because otherwise why would you get comments? Why would people offer their advice? I’m sure you wouldn’t be ugly and awkward, at least, not any more than anyone else here, we’re all awkward because we have different feelings and then we accumulate on here. I understand about wanting to die, but you’re not as worthless as you think you are.
Hi Emma. I also don’t think that you should send this to her. Based on how you describe her, she sounds like a superficial, arrogant and ignorant person and if you tell her how much something that she said to you (over a year ago), hurt you, she may feel like hurting you more. You don’t want her to feel like she has that kind of power. The way to take away her power is to not be affected by her mean words. I’m sure that you’re a nice person. 🙂
Thanks VH, it means a lot.
The thing is, my counselor said i should tell her how I feel, that it makes me a stronger person…i just wanted some more input, so thanks.
Really? I hope I wasn’t pissing you off by telling you you’re worth it. 🙁 I know people can’t accept that sometimes, hell, even I can’t mostly.
Emma, NO, I don’t think this letter will improve your condition (bullying). In fact I believe she will turn out to bully you more.
Your letter tends to be one-sided, you praised her too much and degraded yourself. If from your description of her character is accurate, I presume she will only laugh at your letter with her friends then throw it in the bin. Because in that letter it seems like you are unnaturally talking nice things about her and expressing your hopelessness about yourself.
I believe this letter could be improved with better words and sentence structure, to change the impression but still preserve the content.
I can’t help you much because I don’t know the background of the story and what exactly do you want to express with that letter.
No, I’m just really down on myself. I’m not really good at anything. I just try to succeed and fail. always. I just want to die.
Thanks for your input, everybody. It helps. I probably won’t give this to her.