I see a lot of posts about people who say to themselves they are fine. I feel like I’m the opposite. My default is “fine”. It’s when I’m alone with my thoughts that I talk about how untrue that really is.
I seriously doubt im the only one on here who has wishes they would contract a fatal disease.
My question is, which one do you ask for?
The easy answer is cancer, right?
Does anybody hope for something different? ALS? Aneurism? Or do you just pray for anything thats terminal?
Does anyone else get uncomfortable when people say that care about you? When they do nice things for you? I hate it. Makes me feel dirty.
I dont like gifts or compliments. Theyre just awful. If I dont like me then what reason do you have to? Im an expert on me and I know I am not worth it.
I actively discourage others from caring about me. I think theyre setting themselves up for failure. I genuinely dont get it. Its like theyre putting pressure on me.
“But youre a nice person!” Up until im not. Then i gotta hear about how they had me figured all […]
I’m sure there must be other people who think about what song they might like to kill themselves to.
Normally I think “Mad World” and other songs like that would be good, but today I was listening to the radio and heard the Hawaiian version of “Somewhere Over the Rainbow”. It was really good and I kinda liked the idea of going out to it.
Anyone else’s thoughts and odd songs that you might want to exit to?