I finally told someone about how I feel. Two of my friends. One of them was really supportive and told me to come to her whenever, the other was a *****. She got mad at me and said that she always asked is I was okay and if I needed help (she never did). Now I realize how dumb it was, they really don’t care that much. All they care about is how they look, not about how I feel. I should’ve just kept it to myself, I’m such an idiot. Honestly, I feel horrible all the time, and then I felt worse. I can’t […]
May 31, 2012
9:30 p.m
I feel nothing. I feel useless, dull, and dead. I want to die. I’ve thought of dying. I need help. I NEED HELP! I have so much work to do I feel like I’m drowning, I feel empty. I feel like I have no emotions, I feel lifeless, that my life has no meaning. Nobody understands, at least I don’t think so. They all say it will get better or to suck it up. I can’t suck it up; my body and mind are betraying me! I know intellectually that I need to do things but then my mind […]