fadedhorror

Hello everyone, I posted “Depressed Psycho, I guess” the other day. Mind if I keep a daily posting here for quite a bit?

Today.. I took a shower, and all I thought about was death. Macabre. And sex. I chuckle at myself for thinking of cruel things and lust, but I have no clue why. A woman has been harassing me about my religion and self esteem. I want to really kill her — but I can’t. Now, I am a precise person. I have a strength for… striving for perfection? When people excel over me, I have a deep furious anger, even if it is something […]

This will be a bit.. long. So be prepared to read my stupid, pathetic story.

First off, I want to give you backround information, so you clearly can understand some excerpts from this. A year ago I had no self control. I caused drama. Backstabbed people. For no reason. I felt a thrill. A depressing thrill from it. I don’t know, it’s hard to explain. But this year, I am a “new person”.

I guess.

But, I am in late highschool. I am not a young-puberty-hit-moron with unusual hormones. I look at people, and I have no respect for them, because over the years, people have been cruel […]