God it feels good to be able to talk about this.My parents won’t talk about it and when i even try to go into that area they just look at me like I just said that I want to kill grandpa. I feel suffocated because I was trying to run away from my mistakes and now I made the biggest one and couldn’t escape again.I feel so bad. They’ve taken me to psychiatrists and they asked me “Would you do it again?” and I said of course not but sometimes I feel the urge. Like sometimes my father look upon me because he’s an architect and I’m studying […]
