Sometimes i wanna take the easy way out. Like my Dad. When i was little i used to be so lonley and small, i used to try to semerge myself in the tub and hope i wouldnt give up,and come up for air. I used to yell into my pillow, cry but not just cry.. Soul cry. I like to write alot, hope to make it a Career so, listen up. See, 64 year olds they get a little crazy at that age. My grandma is a old winkley ***** that you just wanna punch in the face because she doesnt hear stuff right and […]
So , Its for me to believe that everyones sorty is differnt. This one..Well its beyond that.
I dont know how to explain my thought really, But im going to try to put you in my shoes, My state of mind.
*Big breath* Alright. . So sometimes that thing called Depression hits me, Makes me want to go home and cry, yell at everyone about my problems and just throw my hands around hoping that they will hit something to take away this pain.. This pain of loss. The pain of never being loved. Always getting walked out on, or forgotten. Im the type of […]
In this house, I don’t feel loved. They beat me to be right, to say the right things. I don’t get it. My parents aren’t here my dad killed himself.. My mom didn’t want me.. No one has loved me. The only love I feel is from my friends. I don’t think friends love lasts forever cause it could change in a heartbeat.. I have a whole in my heart, I could die any second now, but it doesn’t matter to anyone.. It doesn’t matter to anyone that I fall asleep to my pillow soaked but I wake up to a smile on my face […]
So, the story is that… I live with my grandparents, my dad died when I was seven by shootin himself..and my mom wants everything to do with me now. But didn’t when I was born.. Today, my grandparents don’t want anything to do with me because I party and leave “home” to much,yet when I am home no one shows their love or shows that they want me there. I party to get all the hate and pain off my mind.. My grandparents hit me occasionally and that’s another reason I don’t want to be here. It’s hard to live with people that say stuff […]