Some days…I feel absolutely beautiful and that I am such an amazing person, but there they are to let me down again.
Some days…I want to live and love life, but there’s that one amazing thing that I screw up
Some days…some days I love myself …
But..
Most days…most days I don’t know why I’m still here. Because I honestly don’t think I deserve it or am worth it. Am I being selfish? No. I wish I could help myself…and maybe, just maybe, feel worth something.
Lately I’ve been getting very sharp pains in my chest. It only occurs when I think about bad things people have said or done to me (a lot). Today, in particular, was a really bad day. Considering I’m that cheery friendly girl, I can’t break down and cry at school because I’m suppose to be strong. Although I almost broke 3 times. I can’t take this. My friend has been cutting herself for a month but stopped. Everyone just pushes me around. The pain is so piercing that I can’t breathe. It’s been happening a lot. The tears are almost impossible to hold back. It […]
Everytime I think of how many times I’ve been ignored
Or told I was worthless
Everytime I think of being blown off for someone else
Or there’s just not enough time for me
Everytime I think of when I need you the most and all you said was gtg I’m busy
Or to know you don’t love me enough to listen
My heart sinks. And the pain in my chest grows unbearable. A thousand knives could stab me, yet that pain could never equal up to this. At least that pain will end. But this will last forever.
I love the rain…
because it soothes my skin
it cleans my slate
it cleans within
my love and hate
because it cleanses my youth
and brings me life
it tells the truth
and renews my strive
but… most of all
it hides my fears
and helps me stand tall
and hides my tears
(A poem I wrote awhile ago)
I am not one to speak
when I am out of turn
I have been taught to listen
to listen and to learn
Fore if I were to speak my thoughts
Oh, the glares I would recieve
because I would speak the truth
not these lies you all believe
But I will stay silent
my mouth will remain closed
many will frown upon
the choices that I’ve chose
And I will walk away from words
and walk away from violence
the only thing that I will do
is live and die in silence
I’m losing my strive and will to live. I can hardly even finish writing a single poem. Writing is all I have to live for, it’s the only thing I actually WANT to live for. Without it, I am nothing, without it, I’m better off dead.
Hi. My name is Kenzie and I’m 14. l feel really bad about myself, so sometimes I would cut, until I saw blood. To punish myself. But I stopped. It’s really hard to hide, and the one person who knew, it tore them apart. Life is getting slightly better. Until today. My best friend said she’s had enough. Her family pushes her around and her slut of a sister is always telling her she’s worthless. She wants to cut. And I don’t think she knows how addictive it is. I have no way of telling her about me, because that would influence it more. I’m […]
You are BEAUTIFUL
no matter what they say
words CAN’T bring you down
You are BEAUTIFUL
in EVERY single way
yes words CAN’T bring you down
So don’t you bring me down today <3
There's someone out there that you mean the world to, and if you leave, their world will be shattered. I know what if feels like, just try considering that one person, because they can make a difference <3
~Fallenangel33
kenzie.fallenangel33@gmail.com (here to listen)
I found this quote and it seems to be true…
“Life is like a movie, if you’ve sat through more than half of it and its sucked every second so far, it probably isn’t gonna get great right at the end and make it all worthwhile. None should blame you for walking out early.â€
But, if you’ve already sat through half of it, why not just finish it so you know what you’re not missing.
I know some of you won’t care. But my one dream (the reason that I’m still here), is to become a writer. This is a story that I’m working on. You can read it. Maybe tell me how it is. I just need the most honest feedback as possible
http://www.quizazz.com/story.php/1547731/Til-Death/1/
I have a lot of questions. And many go unanswered. But the one question I’ve asked my self every night,
“Why am I still here if he doesn’t even care anymore?”
I felt great. Life was amazing. All I saw was future. But now, my heart has been torn even worse, and I wonder if I’m even good enough. And I can sit here and wonder all I want, but life goes on. Unless I stop mine. I’m losing my will to live. I was halfway there, then he brought me higher, but now I feel like he doesn’t want me, and I’m still falling, farther from where I started. Until I smash into the ground. Life goes on.
If you saw the video on youtube, that’s what inspired me. Look it up. Maybe it will inspire you too.
Stay that way
Today, I woke up
feeling an utter change
I wanted to live yesterday
I want to die today
Who can I tell
no one is here
I’m close to the end
yet, I still have no fear
I don’t want to live
I don’t want to stay
I wish i was dead
and far far away
There are others like me
I’m not alone
to bury their names
engrave them in stone
But the ones that are not
just don’t understand
I try to get help
but nobody […]
I don’t want help. I don’t want to live. I hate myself. I hate everybody. Why can’t I be loved? Why doesn’t anybody care? When will they listen? Why am I still here? I don’t deserve it. When will it get better?
When will it get better?
Somebody created this website. Not to encourage us to do this. About a week after discovering this site, I figured it out, and now I think it’s time to share. The only person who can help us, is ourself. But in order to do that, you have to have the people helping you realize the good things in life. Don’t […]
Dear self,
you have a lot going on. You were forced to grow up fast, and nobody ever really listens to you. Nobody listens or loves you. Nobody cares. That’s why you punish yourself. You hear words, and you believe them. But you know something? You’re still here, right now. After everything, you’re still here reading this. I know you don’t want to be here. And to be honest, I don’t think you’re entirely sane. I know you hate me. I know you want to leave this world. But your alive. Stay that way. Nobody listens? Nobody […]
I never saw the point in living. I had nothing to live for. But I faked a smile for the people who cared. One day, this boy walked into my life. We’ve been together for a little while, I told him who I was, he pushed me away. But he came back, because he understood. He knew he made a mistake. I think I love him. And I know he loves me. He gives me meaning. He’s been helping me find reasons to live. To WANT to live. He makes me…happy. Takes away all of the sadness. It’s nice. I haven’t felt this way in […]
Nobody’s here to stop me. Nobody’s here to care. What is my purpose? Where is my happiness? Where is my love? Why don’t I care? Maybe, maybe I’m better off dead.
We’re all here for the same reason. But if you look at those words again…..
We’re all here
Why? We don’t WANT to be here. But there’s something holding us back. Is it each other? We found each other for a reason. Do you see how we’re helping each other. Maybe it’s each other that we’re holding on to. We don’t know who we are, and we don’t know our full story. But we know that we care and we know we trust. And maybe that’s just enough to hold us, just for a little while longer.
What is the meaning of life? Why are we here? And why do such bad things or feelings come to good people? But most of all, why do the people who are suppose to love and care for us cause us so much pain?
This, this is what I see.
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