This is the second time I’ve told someone. Someone that is close to me. My boyfriend. He told me he didn’t like my attitude, and that it was crappy. He told me that I changed. When really I thought I could show my true self. I told him that I was sorry and that I would go back to pretending my life was perfect and that nothing was wrong. His words, “thank you”. Never again will I tell anyone that I thought cared. I wish I was dead. I can’t do this anymore. The person I should’ve been able to trust most. I’m letting go…of […]
Sometimes I think, would the world really be THAT much different if I were dead? My answer always points to no.
It’s one less mouth to feed.
One less kid to clothe.
One less voice to hear.
One less problem to solve.
One less person to bully.
One less burden in their way.
One less mistake that was made.
Would I really make a difference? No.
i have gathered the strength to cut.
I just want you to know, I’m here to listen.
kenzie.fallenangel33@gmail.com
I won’t lie to you, I won’t feed you false words. I will listen. And I will be with you. I won’t judge. I’m just here to listen. Sometimes, that’s all you need. I’m here to care.
For all who understand, i speak for you. People are always saying oh it will get better, you’ll get through this. But have they ever felt this way? have they gone through this? Those are empty words. You can’t say that it will get better, why? because you don’t know my story, you don’t know what I have to live with, and you can’t see the future. I know you’re trying to help. But your words are empty and blank to me. I don’t need help. I don’t want help. I need to know that someone is here to listen, to show they care. I […]
Why do I always have to ruin everything that’s ever meant something? I can’t take this anymore!!
I wish I could be normal. And I hate the way I ruin everything. It’s always my fault. Now, suicide looks like paradise. I may only be 14, but I’ve taken more than I should’ve.
Hey, if anyone wants to talk and someone to listen, kenzie.fallenangel33@gmail.com is my email, feel free to just tell me whats going on, I can’t promise to make things better, but sometimes just talking and knowing that someone is there to listen helps a little bit. I know I wish I had that. And I promise, I would never do anything mean.
Everyone does things for a reason. Everyone who knows about this website has a reason. I have mine, and you have yours. So what is yours?
I love the rain…because it hides my tears.
Here’s a story I’ve been writing… http://www.quizazz.com/story.php/1547731/Til-Death/1/ its got a lot of personal feelings in it.
hi..here’s the link to my facebook page… http://www.facebook.com/?sk=welcome#!/profile.php?id=100003685939793
and here’s a link to the new story im writing… should i continue? http://www.quizazz.com/story.php/1547731/Til-Death/
If anyone wants to talk…I made a facebook…don’t worry it doesn’t have any personal information…Kenzie Mack…I’m here…(= For any problem..I’m a good listener..its got a raiinbow flower picture
If I were to cut myself for everytime I felt abandoned, unloved, or betrayed, there would be nothing left to cut
So i sit here, going over my life story. Everybody told me that it would get better. They lied. So I stopped telling them things. My mom already told me I’m the reason they’re always fighting, and the reason of the divorce is the fighting. Maybe if I was out of their lives, it would be easier. For everybody. I’ve kept this in so long. I can’t keep living. I am destructive, I ruin everything I touch, my parents marriage, my relationships, my friendships, my life. I’ve ruined so many lives. Why can’t I just be normal? Because, I ruin everything. It’s always my fault. […]
(Written with a shattered suicidal heart)
If I could go back in time
to when you asked me out
I’d look at you and say
of course, without a doubt
The kids at school can laugh
the kids at school can stare
but they just dont know
the love of ours is rare
I don’t know what to say
and I don’t know what to do
I don’t know how to tell
I want my 1st kiss with you
I wish that you would hold me
in your arms at night
wrapped around my heart
wrapped aroung my sides
I only wish that you could know
all the things I […]
There’s a girl I know
who is worthless,
nothing,
useless,
she’s never good enough
she’s always getting rejected
she has NOTHING to live for
but EVERYTHING to die for
It’s why she cries herself to sleep
everynight
but what most people wouldn’t expect
that girl
is me
~fallenangel33
My face shows no weakness
My body stands strong
but my soul, through the deepness
constantly longs
For a hero to come
come and rescue me
yet, I know there is no one
there’s no one here to see
The pain I always feel
lasting all this while
to know this hurt so real
can be hidden with a smile
~Fallenangel33
Hi. My life story? I’m fourteen years old. My parents are divorcing, and I know it’s because of me, I was their mistake. My dad wanted kids at first, but my mom didn’t, now neither of them really want me. I have friends, and I seem like a normal crazy teenager. But hey, a smile can’t hide everything. My uncle committed suicide. I’ve thought about it many times. The only thing holding is my best friend, her brother died a few years ago. She has thoughts of suicide too. My words have always stopped her, I just wish that I could believe them myself. I’m […]
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