I’ve been contemplating suicide for a while now.
I’d be doing simple stuff, normal everyday stuff,
Then my mind will drift off into suicidal thoughts.
I’d be walking down the street..
Then I think, why don’t I just walk in front of that car?
Why not end it all right now?
I’d be in the tub.. I’ll go under water…
Then I start to think, why not stay down?
What’s the point of being alive,
If I already feel like I’m dead inside?
I’d be cutting up food for dinner
My eye would catch the blade cutting smoothly.
Why not just slit my throat, cut […]
I need help.. I don’t want to live anymore, but I don’t want to die… I just want to dissapear off the face of the earth, I just want the pain to stop. My heart feels like it’s going to explode… Maybe I should start cutting again…
Look at her, look at him.
She’s an angel, cloaked in sin,
He’s the demon, yet clean within.
Look at her, look at him.
See the good, not the bad.
She’s broken inside,
He smiles with pride.
See the good, not the bad.
Believe the lies, not the truth.
She’s yearning for something true,
He’s the type that would only use you.
Believe the lies, not the truth.
Look at her, look at him.
She’s crying herself to sleep,
He’s a wolf clothed like a sheep.
Look at her, look at him.
See the good, not the bad.
She believed she could never be strong
He never told her […]
Didn’t you see the tears
As they roled down my cheeks?
Didn’t you see the fear
It’s been in my eyes for weeks…
Didn’t you hear me call
Your name a thousand times?
Didn’t you see me fall
Into the darkest of minds…
Didn’t you hear my voice break
When I pleaded you to stay?
Didn’t you see my knees shake
As you were walking away…
Didn’t I give you
Enough?
Didn’t I give you
Love…
Why did I think that this time would be different
Why did I think this time would be true
Why did I think that you wouldn’t become distant
Why did I believe in you
Why did I put my heart on the line
Why did I give my all
Why did I think it would all be fine
Why did I think you’d catch me when I fall
Why did I think I was enough
Why did I let you break my heart
Why did I think I deserved your love
Why did I let it fall apart
Why did I let myself fall in love…