Its 4 am, im on my own. Im drunk. I started to “fix it” by snorting an assortment of drugs i have in my nightstand. Things have been looking down at me for the past few weeks, but it has been bareable. Right now im lost. Like i said, im all on my own tonight. I have all that i need and more with in arms reach. I dont want to kill myself but i am more than ready to die. Tonight the alcohol, drugs and blades seem like such a comfortable thing. It seems like the right thing to do tonight, eventhough i KNOW […]
Dear younger me,
I know you’re hurting, I remember how it felt to live in the chaos that was our mind. You’ve been through way more than a kid ever should, and you’re scared. The people you call your parents let you down, time and time again. I know it breaks your heart to not feel loved by them. I know it hurts when those kids at school call you names, ignore you or hurt you. I’ll be honest, it still haunts me sometimes.
I feel so sorry for what happened to you when you were 12. He broke your trust and left a mark on you […]