flutterby

So… Music is a great way to escape and I thought we could all share the type of music you like and then name a few artists and songs.

Who wants to go first?…….Anyone?…..

Okay. I’ll start it then.

I usually listen to a myriad of types but here lately I have been listening a lot to rap.

Techn9ne: Einstein is my favorite.

Kevin Gates: I don’t get tired is definitely my favorite.

Future: Fuck up some commas.

And recently I have been listening almost exclusively to…

Die Antwoord: Ugly boy, Cookie thumper, I’m a ninja and Baby’s on fire.

That’s just a few. So who would like to go next?…

This intense physical pain is at least a distraction from my horrendous mental anguish.

Too bad it’s constant.

It’s easy to believe that we are powerless but that only leaves us as victims. If we start saying “I can!” then we give ourselves, in the least, a chance to make it.

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I was 8 years old the first time I tried to commit suicide. I’m 38 years old today and my life isn’t really any better. I attempted suicide plenty of times between then and now but I, like some, don’t want to die as much as I want to have a better life I just didn’t know how to attain it and, as I have found, might never really feel like I know how.

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One thing I always wanted […]