I don’t want to be here anymore.. I really don’t. The only thing that stops me is knowing how much I would hurt my boyfriend and how upset my mum would be if she was here. But I’m over life and it’s bullshit, I just want to leave.
I wish I had a normal life with parents and going to parties and having fun.
I wish I could see my mum again, at least one last time to say goodbye.
I wish I didn’t have anxiety problems, depression and OCD.
I wish I didn’t have to pretend to be happy all the time.
I wish I could actually meet my brothers and sisters and let them know I actually exist.
I wish I had a proper family, not just an aunt and an uncle.
I wish I had people around me who would understand me.
I wish my mum was here so she could hug me and tell me everything […]
Okay so I won’t tell you my name just incase someone reading this knows me. I randomly found this website just before searching up suicide things on google. Anyway I am a seventeen year old girl living in New Zealand. I have been diagnosed with depression by a doctor and people tell me all the time they think I suffer from other disorders like bipolar and OCD and others like that.
I have three half-brothers and one half-sister as well as a full sister. I have met two of my half-brothers about three time. My other half-brother and my half-sister don’t even know that I exist. […]