I just want to tell them. I want to tell my parents that I’m not ok. That I self harm. That I’m always bored. That I feel worthless. That I’m just not fucking happy. But I don’t know whether I should or not. Should I wait and tell my counselor first? The next time I see her though is in 4 weeks. Should I just tell them like right now? I’m going to make them so upset. I’m going to ruin everything, it’ll be all my fault. But I can’t handle this everyday. I can’t handle laying in bed all day doing nothing because I’m […]
Sadness suddenly appearsÂ
It knows it is one of my worst fears
The darkness is where it makes its attack
So why do I feel so safe in the haunting pitch black?Â
We both know it will win the fightÂ
We both know I’ll end up sad tonightÂ
I beg it to leave me alone but it doesn’t want to be kind
It pounces on my vulnerability and destroys my state of mind
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I fight even harder but I know it’s not going away Â
It is extremely hungry tonight and I’m it’s only prey
Its stronger than me and begins to  obtain total controlÂ
Sadness is […]
I am always speechless. I have no words. Finally I’ve found some and I’m ready to put them together. I’m going to write how I feel. Let’s hope it makes sense.Â
I can’t take it anymore. I really can’t. Just building up all my emotions, and giving them no escape.Â
I’ve always been happy. Since when wasn’t I happy? I can’t remember why I became sad. I honestly can’t remember when or even why. I just did. I just had enough, you know. Like a balloon that pops. Eventually it cant take all that air anymore and so it pops. Well that was me. I just popped. […]