Sadness

Sadness suddenly appears 
It knows it is one of my worst fears
The darkness is where it makes its attack
So why do I feel so safe in the haunting pitch black? 

We both know it will win the fight 
We both know I’ll end up sad tonight 
I beg it to leave me alone but it doesn’t want to be kind
It pounces on my vulnerability and destroys my state of mind
 
I fight even harder but I know it’s not going away  
It is extremely hungry tonight and I’m it’s only prey
Its stronger than me and begins to  obtain total control 
Sadness is now my mind, body and soul 

My only escape is in the cold, deadly blade 
I pick it up, knowing that all my sanity will soon fade
I press down aggressively on my innocent skin
I don’t understand, why does this make me grin? 

I make sure my sadness cannot be seen 
I try my hardest to keep my arms and wrists clean
There’s a perfect canvas for me, right on my thighs
That way no one sees and I won’t have to tell lies

When the deed is over, sadness laughs as it waves goodbye 
And leaves me all alone with no one to cry
But then I remember the marks which I made from this undying fear
So we all sit together in the darkness and shed our tears.