I first felt suicidal at 15 (I’m 36 now). My life since then has been a long search of finding purpose. I am a deep person and so all the usual ‘purposes’ that people cough up don’t wash with me. I’m not being harsh about that, I investigate these purposes, I have tried them myself, but they are all in vain.Â
Such as, spreading love to as many people as you can. I’m sorry but on the grander scale of things (which is where my heart and soul is) I find love to be somewhat of an indulgence (it’s also a passing feeling of no certainty […]